TOMORROW NIGHT ORANGE COUNTY! I am SO excited to share my story at @harvestoc with @greglaurie! It's a free event, come as you are, tee shirt, shorts, jeans, jean shorts! Chucks, Vans, sandals, it doesn't matter, just be there! God has been moving in my life so radically lately after my season of loss... and I'm overjoyed to be able to share all He is doing NOW... // 7PM // 🕊 "... I have learned how to be content in ANY circumstance. I KNOW the experience of being in need and of having more than enough; I have learned the secret to being content in any and every circumstance, whether full or hungry or whether having plenty or being poor. I can endure all these things through the power of Christ who gives me strength!!!" - Philippians 4:11-13 🕊
"He's too skinny get this guy a sandwich." // "Why does he always look so sick & tired all the time?" I have MARFAN SYNDROME. It makes me skinny because it is tearing apart and stretching all the connective tissues in my entire body. I LOOK sick and tired because I AM SICK and because I AM TIRED. I have had sleep apnea my entire life and used a CPAP or BIPAP machine just to avoid stopping breathing when I sleep for the past 6-7 years. Now my medical team has found I have hypersomnia AND narcolepsy, and just spent the past 24 hours doing night and day sleep studies. They were my FIFTH round... Being in CONSTANT physical pain, with CONSTANT fatigue, day in and day out, affects my mind, brain function and body immensely. I won't let it affect my spirit. Nor the comments of random people who know nothing about real daily stuggle or real daily pain. Neither should you.
Your battle is your own, people judge without reason, without knowledge. Let them. Love them even still. Keep going. There is only one you, wonderfully and fearfully made. God created you with a purpose, never let anyone steal that gift from you with their opinions. "You've never walked a mile in my shoes, you dont know what I've been through."
Interview with the new @marked_ministry online magazine about some of the things upcoming in the future 📲 Will be going LIVE on their account today ( Tuesday July 9th ) at 1PM PST to answer your questions about the article. The link is in my bio to read, see you over there later today! 🕊❤
From the day I met you I was attracted to the way you described your passion for art & painting. Not afraid to mess up, get messy, or take chances. I admire that you're your own worst critic, you're always pushing yourself & that you're constantly growing & building while learning along the way. Your drive & how you talk about your art plus the glow on your face when you do so is one of my favorite things about you. Congratulations on your new website @maudionfire ❤ I'm so happy to be with a woman like you, I'm so blessed to be with you period 🕊 2 Timothy 4:17 🎨 www.maudionfire.com 🎨
My rib, my rock, my best friend, my love, my light. We don't need music to dance together, there's already an inaudible song to sing that only we can hear. God is so good. His planning, His timing, His example, His love, so grateful. Him in the middle, our foundation, individually & together @maudionfire ❤🕊
Eight months ago this documentary came out thanks to @iamsecond // I'm excited to dive more into this story tomorrow at Harvest Fellowship in Orange County, California. The address is 17600 Gillette Ave, in Irvine and starts at 7:00 pm. Free event, come as you are, thank you @harvestoc@harvestorg 🕊 The link for this video is in my bio, please watch it if you haven't 🕊
This is my heart. Valve sparing aortic root replacement surgery, due to my connective tissue disorder Marfan Syndrome. They replaced part of my aorta that was bulging & at risk of rupture. My mother died from this, she had an aneurysm then suddenly passed just an hour later. Her passing led me away from God, to start Of Mice & Men. When I came back to Him, I was forced to leave the band because of my health. Which led me to Costa Rica, where I spent time healing & drawing closer to Him away from the noise & world. Then I lost all my possessions due to my storage unit being auctioned off in Orange County while recovering. I lost literally everything. After all that, back to my health wrecking me again. Which led me to the states for more procedures, Las Vegas to help friends write music, accepting a job there, meeting my fiance in the hospital during a stay & now to this post. We aren't guaranteed tomorrow, life is fleeting. People throw jabs at me for retaining my joy & becoming a "Jesus Freak" since I left the band. I'll take it. I'll take Jesus any day of the week, because I need Him every day of the week. I talk about Him so often because He died for me, for you & He wants nothing more than a relationship with us. Not a checklist, money, or institutionalized "Christianity." He wants our hearts. My relationship with Him has brought me more joy, peace & abundance of life than anything the world ever did. He is coming back soon, its inevitable. Let Him take your heart of stone & replace it with a heart of flesh. Let Him transform you, a relationship with your Creator will do nothing short of that. There is no way to determine how much of an impact my lyrics from the heart & about my life impacted others lives since I started the band. But it was Gods story, not my own. & that story wouldn't be complete w/out sharing what He has radically done in me. My lyrics about pain, self-harm, death, addiction, suicide, depression, & loneliness would all be in vain for the lives they affected if I left out the person who took all that hurt away. They may have helped you in THIS life, but only Christ can help you into the next 🕊John 10:10 John 14:6 Revelation 22:7&10 🕊
My big sisters wedding in London with @maudionfire and my old man meeting for the first time. They were both so nervous to meet but neither realized just how ridiculous the other was... I knew it, I know them, and knew they would hit it off... @maudionfire is hilarious, straight up comedy. She makes me laugh until it hurts, either laughing with her or AT her, it never fails. She even makes me laugh when shes laughing at me too. I'm always doing something stupid, saying something stupid, saying sentences backwards, or stumbling over my own feet and she is guilty of the same. She finds humor knowing she has finally met someone with as random and ridiculous of a brain as her own. Following doing something many would consider embarrassing, I'm greeted with a "do it again, do it again!" and laughter, one of the many things I love about her... My Pops is funny too, you cant help but laugh at his ridiculousness and lighthearted attitude. You see, theres a certain joy that comes upon you when you step into a relationship with your Creator, and you cant help but let it overflow... its impossible to contain.
My dad knew I would be asking Maudi to marry me and it was a blessing to watch his face and emotions seeing his daughter married, while getting to know his soon to be daughter in law at the same time. Especially seeing her heart, how much she loves Jesus, how much she loves his son, and how different our relationship is than anything else before. Saving our bodies for marriage, honoring God, and placing Him as the foundation on which we build our relationship and lives together. We realize to truly love you must know Gods love, and when you encounter Gods love, it changes you, from the inside out, forever. The attributes of God are the same as love, and vice versa... This past weekend was amazing, and it may have ended with a "YES" as I proposed, but it started with both of us saying "YES" to Jesus first. The connection between my dad and Maudi was more than comedy, it was Gods love over pouring into one another, the same as what brought her and I together in the first place 🇬🇧🕊