2018 was undoubtedly the hardest year of my life so far. It was privately a dark, heavy year with vast, various amounts of hardships. It forced me into a very Godly place of solitude that one would typically run from or cave in to. Literally rock bottom. At that point, I learned that truly facing myself was the answer. Not running, hiding, or self medicating, but facing it. Sometimes we fear solitude, the dark, the pressure... but pressure creates diamonds. Pressure literally creates stars. I found myself, in the worst place of my life, but thanking God every morning. Accepting my solitude and embracing meditation. I traded pointless conversations for a practice of silence. “Say less” as a slang expression meant more to me. I began to understand my own magic started from the inside out and that included what I eat so I became vegetarian. Exercised way more frequently. Began to read more as Id always wanted to. Learned how to breathe properly and monitor my breath. Observed all my toxic habits, excruciatingly, daily. Questioned everything I knew and didn’t know. Forgave others. Forgave myself. Accepted others. Accepted myself. Embraced my light. Had a chat with my shadow-self and embraced that as well. Truly fell back in love with myself. Found my smile again. Stopped chasing love, then love showed up. Began to put intention into everything I do, to spread light, including every single person I come in contact with. Learned how to truly manifest and realized, again, that I am very powerful. •
I’ve had reoccurring dreams of standing on a cliff my entire life. Now I know why. Lately I’ve been having this feeling that I have evolved and grown so much that I’m at a point now that I can’t or couldn’t go back. Only forward. The predictable road of comfort runs out at some point and thats where the magic erupts if you embrace it. I’d hit rock bottom, now I stand on that rock. I crawled, I walked, I climbed, I evolved. Time to spread wings now and fly for real. Happy birthday to me! Love you all!